Saturday, January 15, 2011

My dad comes to visit






Last week my dad made his annual January trip down to see the kids. They loved opening the many presents that he brought for them, as well as, just hanging out with him. Gotta love "Sweet William." lol

Happy New Year!

2011 was supposed to be my year of new beginnings. Unfortunitally falling down the stairs and breaking both my tail bone and 2 toes hasn't been a very good way to start the new year. I was so hoping to get back to the gym, as I think that physically it will help get me back to where I was, and mentally help me get my energy and ambition back. Guess I will have to wait on that one. For the most part my toes seem to be healing nicely, but my poor rump is a different story. I have a hard time sitting. Even tried a donut and it still hurts.. I wouldn't wish a fall down the stairs to anybody.

My beloved 1995 Ford Escort was also hit while parked on the street by a school kid just days into 2011. My very first reliable car. Made ever payment. Still runs great and only has 109,000 miles on it. Go figure that a smash to the fender and grill would total the car out.. So frustrating. Now to work with the insurance company to get things worked out. That car just may be my only means of transportation come May when I possibly lose the van, so pray we can salvage it.

Preschool has gotten off to a good start. I decided that if I was going to get out of my "dry rut" at school, I was going to make it extra special and fun. When I say "dry rut", I simply mean that for me, things just seemed stale and routine. The same lessons over and over year after year. I have been working extra hard on making things new and exciting for the kids, which in turns makes me more exciting about teaching. I love those preschool kids and will be so sad if things dont work out for next year.. :(

The kids are doing well. Micaela has been in councelling now since the summer and seems to be handeling the divorce better.

Grant is doing great and is even reading chapter books. Sadely I am not a Harry Potter fan, but have been forcing myself to alternate pages with him at home nightly. Will somebody tell me what the point is?? I guess I am not into wizardtry and that enchanted stuff...

Bethany is still a littler "mommas suck", though I will say having Sandy at Kurt's house has helped her. She was so hard to seperate from me to go stay with Kurt for a week, and now seems more at peace or ease with it.

Ralph was recentlly officially named Kenmare's City auditor. Working for the city as auditor and city economic developer has been great for him. He really enjoys his job and working for the city. I am very proud of all of his hard work and his dedication to drive to Crosby as often as he can to see me and the kids. He is a really great guy!

I recently started writing a "book" so to speak, about my divorce and the process of emotions etc. that went along with it. Even if I never share it with the world, getting everything that happened From January 2010 to June 2010 off my chest has really helped me a lot. I have admitted my wrongs, and accepted my new life. All of this has really helped me jump start my new life. I have decided that instead of living for everybody else, I need to live my life for me and the kids. I was always so worried about being the "perfect Mrs. Kocher" that I lost tract of the fun outgoing girl within me. I still struggle with minor depression at times, but have stopped thinking about the what if, could have, should haves. I am done with that. God had his plan for me, and things are now starting to fall into place.

Councelling have really been a help to me. Often times my councellor just lets me talk away for an hour hardly saying a word. Sometimes just speaking my mind helps me realize the things that I need to do. Amazing how sometimes your best guidance comes from within. :)

I am also learning that money doesn't buy you happiness. Do I miss my endless check book yes??? But would I trade it for the happiness I am feeling right now? Nope. Surely things like worrying about how to make this house more livable or whether or not I will be able to afford a reliable vehicle for me and the kids come Spring wears on me, but Ralph makes me so dam happy that it has really changed me as a person. I used to be so uptight. I was always wanting more and more and wanting things to be so perfect all of the time, that I often made people walk around on egg shells around me. No more. Things are what they are.. I have learned that I can take the help where I need it and It doesn't always have to be PERFECT PERFECT.. Part of my problem has always been having things perfect. I just assune do everything on my own, because surely nobody could do it as good as i. No more. Being a single mother has taught me that I can't do everything on my own, and when Ralph or my family wants to help I am now glad to have whatever help I can get. :)

So yes I may have had a set back in 2011 because of my fall, but my mind is good, and I am living each day as they come...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

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