Lemons Anyone???

I know I have said it before, but here it goes again. When life gives you lemons, MAKE LEMONDADE... Well everyone, I have way too much lemonade and more than enough lemons, so........

So I guess it is time to brighten my horizions...

For most of the summer I have been waiting around to hear back as to whether or not I got hired here in Crosby. As most of you know, I have been waiting for 10 LONG years. Every time a position comes up, I get the same old babble.. "Sorry, but we really need coaches." So I patiently have enjoyed being my kids' mom and have worked my rump off at the preschool. After my divorce, I got a large wake up call.. Having once been able to just stick the preschool profits away, to now having to live off off them hasn't been easy.. So long story short, I really needed a full time job to be able to stay in the community. Sadely, I was over looked yet again. I can honestly say the day I got the call, I cried all day. I even cried on the phone. Honestly one of the most horrible days ever.. To hear, "We really want you to sub three days a week, and see you in the building on the days you don't teach preschool." just leads me to believe they didn't hire me because of loss of the preschool. ugggg

So now this is where I am at... I really only have a couple of options. Get a job in a neighboring town and commute back and forth with the kids mostly living with Kurt, or apply else where and take the kids from Kurt. Not pretty. Do you still my frustration as to why I really needed that teaching job here in town? I do not want to take the kids from Kurt, nor do I want to leave them here. I have a home, my children are active in many activites in the community, Im envolved.. I just dont get it.

As far as the preschool, of course I will continue it. However, there is a chance that if I get a job, I will have to give it up. When the difference in numbers is making less than $5000 a year doing the preschool or making $30,000 some thousand a year teaching full time, it is kind of a no brainer. It has been a struggle the past year. I love the preschool more than anything, but again it doesn't support a family of 4. Trust me ive crunched numbers over and over again.

Moving on. Ralph got him self into a bit of a pickle, so as of right now, we have our relationship on hold. I really need him to clear up all of his stuff.. We live and learn from our experiences, so hopefully this is a learning experience for him. Sometimes good people make big mistakes.. He is living in my basement, as he lost his apartment, so while not idea, it is working. I care about him very much, just hopes he starts thinking clearier..

The kids are doing fantastic. We have been running to Grant's pee-wee games, and the girls' tee ball games. The kids just love baseball. Then there was bible camp, and swimming lessons. Next week we have bible school, and scout camp. Always something. We have had some amazing weekends at the cabin, and even enjoyed a day in the sun at the the Watford water park last weekend. The kids have enjoyed having extra company at our house, as I have been baby sitting part time to make a bit of summer money. Every day I baby sit is a day we can go and do something, so it has been working out.

With just a little over 6 weeks until school starts, who only knows what the rest of the summer will hold. Really it has only felt like summer for the past 3 weeks, so it feels like summer has just begun. Thank goodness the rain has stopped for the most part. The basement is now dry.. :)

I am a positive person, so with all of these lemons, I know there has to be a cookie or two to help things out.. Perhaps maybe a full time job isn't in the plan for my life.. Just have to work with what I have, and weigh all options..

:)